Saturday, November 28, 2009
My 110% main
Hello world. I am currently at my dearest Cess' house, coming from my cousin's beautiful house with my cutest baby cousins<3 I like spontaneous activities and never ending trips. I am incredibly full, which calls for another set of 100 sit ups in about half an hour. Lacking sleep but we're making the most of the last two days of break. Alright I'm signing off to chill with the rest of these homies posted in the loving room. Peace
Friday, November 27, 2009
Things are changing, but I'm ready for more
I haven't really just sat down and processed my thoughts in a long while, so I thought this would be a good time to somehow vent or express some random thoughts and emotions - for bloggers, those who care enough to read, and for those who are simply bored.
I have been thinking about my future plans more and more lately. It's like every time I come across anything relating to the life after highschool, no matter how microscopic it is, I always fall into a complete bewilderment. Sometimes I feel overly excited, maybe even a bit irrational, but then sometimes I feel incredibly disappointed. Either way, it's messing with my head.
I'm single and I think I'm going through that phase when you question which status fits you the most. A few of my most amazing boys are always there for me, and I'm glad to have them in my life. Do I see a chance in a relationship? Yes. Would I put myself in one? Well at the moment, that's a different story.
I think I've come to realize so many things in such a short time period. I look back at the old times and I notice that it would have taken me a couple of "maybe it's not" and "maybe it is" before I differentiate belief with reality. Now when I analyze some things, I take risks.
My self confidence is actually pretty low. I just know how to project, and I honestly don't mean to intimidate people.
Nostalgia is one of the few things that can make me speechless. And you might ask why it seems that powerful. Well here: You look back and you catch yourself smiling, sometimes having a few laughs over little silly things that you remember you used to do. And when you go about those pictures and you continue to look through them, suddenly it's like you've just been struck by five different emotions all at the same time. That's because nostalgia links you from your past and to what's happening in front of you, right there and then. It makes you evaluate what person you've become, which friends you've gotten close to, and how you managed to take yourself out of those situations you used to be in. Then there it is. It's a tiny step to growing up, learning your lessons, and having a wake-up call from reality.
I have been thinking about my future plans more and more lately. It's like every time I come across anything relating to the life after highschool, no matter how microscopic it is, I always fall into a complete bewilderment. Sometimes I feel overly excited, maybe even a bit irrational, but then sometimes I feel incredibly disappointed. Either way, it's messing with my head.
I'm single and I think I'm going through that phase when you question which status fits you the most. A few of my most amazing boys are always there for me, and I'm glad to have them in my life. Do I see a chance in a relationship? Yes. Would I put myself in one? Well at the moment, that's a different story.
I think I've come to realize so many things in such a short time period. I look back at the old times and I notice that it would have taken me a couple of "maybe it's not" and "maybe it is" before I differentiate belief with reality. Now when I analyze some things, I take risks.
My self confidence is actually pretty low. I just know how to project, and I honestly don't mean to intimidate people.
Nostalgia is one of the few things that can make me speechless. And you might ask why it seems that powerful. Well here: You look back and you catch yourself smiling, sometimes having a few laughs over little silly things that you remember you used to do. And when you go about those pictures and you continue to look through them, suddenly it's like you've just been struck by five different emotions all at the same time. That's because nostalgia links you from your past and to what's happening in front of you, right there and then. It makes you evaluate what person you've become, which friends you've gotten close to, and how you managed to take yourself out of those situations you used to be in. Then there it is. It's a tiny step to growing up, learning your lessons, and having a wake-up call from reality.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
MW2 Takes Over
Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 has taken over all the men in my life. The intriguing sequel to the Call of Duty 4 was released on November 10, 2009, and practically created a mob of PS3 and Xbox 360 users to a ground breaking sales of 4.7 million copies in the first 24 hours. I'm quite a gamer myself, so I decided to look more into the game while the boys' hands are glued to the consoles.
The newly released game is a first-person shooter video game with settings that include Afghanistan, Rio de Janeiro, Siberia, and Washington D.C. for the hands on mission of war: to counter the Russian invasion of the United States due to an ultranationalist terrorist organization.
The keys to the game are stealth and discipline, but with a couple of situations where killing hundreds to save thousands becomes the priority. "Playing the video game made me feel grateful for the soldiers who risk their lives for us, but mostly because I know I'm lucky enough not to go into war. Atleast until the Russians arrive." And truth be hold, Russia banned sales of Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 because of the controversial scene that enabled the shooting of inncocent individuals in Moscow, Russia. Activision called this absurd, but they had to remove the scene for international sales to be activated.
And yes, Christian, now it's time to win these men back.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Take me out tonight, where there's music and there's people, and they're young and alive
I am definitely grateful for this weekend. I did not expect half the things that took place in the past two days, but that's when you know that you really have got to know how to go with the flow of things and expect the unexpected.
Friday night turned out pretty interesting.. it was somewhat of a chill date. Then on Saturday, it led to a spontaneous trip to our friends' houses, then I ended up watching the Pacquiao fight at Cess' house which of course, just like the typical Pacquiao boxing parties, resulted on the walls of the house figuratively falling apart from all the laughing, jumping, and screaming with a mixture of nervousness and anticipation. Coming home late on a Friday night was a major relief; I missed the nightlife.
Today was absolutely amazing. Forgetting to bring the camera because of the rush to get ready was quite a disappointment to Lizeth and I, but the day turned out pretty well. We headed to Walnut Creek to shop, and I have got to tell you, I absolutely love street and outdoor shopping. It seemed like its been forever since I've been there, but walking around the streets and coming across familiar faces until the winter chill hits at about 5 in the afternoon was a sweet experience. Urban Outfitters and H&M would have to kick us out of their stores because we could NOT make up our minds. She and I need to go back and get some of the things we had our eyes on, and hopefully it will be soon.
We left the place and went to Concord Mall to shop at Forever 21 and Heritage- and boy were we in another rush. We struggled to find an item of interest in less than thirty minutes. Power walking around the mall was actually pretty funny, considering that some of the salesmen were trying to catch our attention. But we had one mission, and one mission only.
We stopped by to get some food, sat down and had a long talk about a lot of things. It was a good feeling.. all cutesy from beginning to end. And to give it that sparkle, the music that we played in the car was a recollection of some of the sweetest, most epic songs. The Smiths, Joy Division, Phoenix, Lykke Li, and a whole bunch of other indie, echno, rock, and classic songs were playing the whole time on the way back to Vallejo. Last song playing - "There Is A Light That Never Goes Out" - The Smiths
Friday night turned out pretty interesting.. it was somewhat of a chill date. Then on Saturday, it led to a spontaneous trip to our friends' houses, then I ended up watching the Pacquiao fight at Cess' house which of course, just like the typical Pacquiao boxing parties, resulted on the walls of the house figuratively falling apart from all the laughing, jumping, and screaming with a mixture of nervousness and anticipation. Coming home late on a Friday night was a major relief; I missed the nightlife.
Today was absolutely amazing. Forgetting to bring the camera because of the rush to get ready was quite a disappointment to Lizeth and I, but the day turned out pretty well. We headed to Walnut Creek to shop, and I have got to tell you, I absolutely love street and outdoor shopping. It seemed like its been forever since I've been there, but walking around the streets and coming across familiar faces until the winter chill hits at about 5 in the afternoon was a sweet experience. Urban Outfitters and H&M would have to kick us out of their stores because we could NOT make up our minds. She and I need to go back and get some of the things we had our eyes on, and hopefully it will be soon.
We left the place and went to Concord Mall to shop at Forever 21 and Heritage- and boy were we in another rush. We struggled to find an item of interest in less than thirty minutes. Power walking around the mall was actually pretty funny, considering that some of the salesmen were trying to catch our attention. But we had one mission, and one mission only.
We stopped by to get some food, sat down and had a long talk about a lot of things. It was a good feeling.. all cutesy from beginning to end. And to give it that sparkle, the music that we played in the car was a recollection of some of the sweetest, most epic songs. The Smiths, Joy Division, Phoenix, Lykke Li, and a whole bunch of other indie, echno, rock, and classic songs were playing the whole time on the way back to Vallejo. Last song playing - "There Is A Light That Never Goes Out" - The Smiths
12-21-12
Behold, the mind-boggling movie that brought The Day After Tomorrow and Titanic to the minds of avid viewers has been released on the socially intrigued Friday the thirteenth, November of year 2009. If you haven't seen the movie, then this is a bit of a spoiler.
Fortunately, the movie does not start with endless talking in a room of god-knows-what with god-knows-who to focus on an "important" conversation between the characters of the movie. It immediately jumps on the main conflict, with the necessary connection to the study and background to ensure clarity. But here's a hitch, the movie is a bit too long, especially when you start imagining that there is a remote control where you can just press the forward button and find out the ending. The plot became a bit too bizzare for its own sake (although I give props to the visualization and special effects team). I would think that video game fanatics who enjoy driving cars to escape devastation would consider the movie to be amazing. A series of tsunamis take over the entire city in less than sixty seconds to a roaring suprise of a sea level reaching up to the peak of Mt. Everest; meanwhile, roads split apart to make way for the molten lava coming from beneath the Earth's surface while buildings fall like dominoes along with its people grab on to the nearest thing they could find in order to find the slightest chance of survival--which is closest to none.
Nonetheless, the movie conveyed some morals. The story writer also focused on the personal connection between the characters to reach out to the readers as human beings. It was a bit too predictable for me, but I have to admit, it was still a job well done.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Perspective
10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now
1. Figuratively speaking, I need a fire extinguisher with you. And that alone is actually a big hint
2. You can't take me for a fool, I know more than you think I do.
3. Even though the future is a bit scary and a whole lot mysterious, I'd like to see and experience a radical change in the next few months, which I believe has a chance of happening. I have got to tell you, I need to break away
4. You have so much potential, and I realized that our similarities are so abstract that they almost seem a bit unrealistic. I know that you'll go far in life, and I hope we can make it through another year and end up living the life we've always aspired to live
5. You're over here seemingly curious about my life and wanting to keep in touch, yet you turn around and question everything about me. I honestly thought you were one of the sweetest girls I have ever met, but now, your insecurity is getting the best of you, and it makes you seem incredibly ignorant. Stop being a two face.
6. You're like my dream boy, and I hope you start believing in yourself
7. Thank you for understanding me, no matter how complex and unimaginably complicated I am.
8. I shouldn't have to prove myself to anyone. You, and surely a whole lot of other people in the world, are so fixed on their thinking that there is no pleasing them. People will always be critics
9. You've made a slight change in my life; the distance and the situation that we went through created an imaginary borderline. I miss you
10. I'm always going to be here for you. (And we're going to complete this dancing thing haha I missed it so much)
10 things people may not know about you
1. I zone out a little more than I should
2. I'm picky and specific with the intro of any song I listen to; i.e. I strongly dislike remixes that have intros longer than 20 to 25 seconds.
3. I like tattoos that have something to do with music (band names, singers, classics, songs, lyrics, etc.)
4. I act like a guy at home; I act carefree yet chill, and I don't take the time to talk about girly things and chick flick movies until I actually read and know its content.
5. I find myself more compatible hanging out with my guy friends rather than sitting in a room gossiping with my girls. But hands down, I still love my girl nights
6. I don't wear my heart on my sleeve
7. I love dares, thrills, and adventures. Except for the obviously stupid things, I always like to have my night out with something memorable and eccentric
8. I like provocative gangster music with the ever so famous hip hop and R & B slang for my party-hardy type of attitude, but I'm telling you, I also listen to songs you probably would never take the time to listen to, or songs as old as your grandmother
9. I find late home movie nights extremely sweet! Good company + good movie + genuine laughter = my idea of a sweet good time
10. I am ridiculously indecisive
9 ways to win my heart
1. Never be too clingy
2. Be able to let me know your priorities in life and the motivation you have. I always find that endearing
3. Having some knowledge in fashion
4. Making promises, and sticking to them
5. I'm not a big fan of that kissy-wussy movie dates. I'd rather go on an adventure with you in a place I've never been before
6. Be able to talk about anything without feeling insecure. I love spontaneous conversations. I might even find something you thought was ridiculous to bring up as something interesting
7. Don't be a show-off. Show your talents and intelligence naturally
8. Be down for a good time.
9. I find it sweet when a guy notices a flaw on the girl and think it's absolutely adorable. A non-judgemental guy is always a keeper
7 things that cross your mind a lot
1. College
2. My endless daydreams and vivid imaginations<3
3. Big cities
4. My potential career and my future
5. Boys and relationships. Ugh, I'm pathetic on that part. But it's part of life
6. Analyzing people's problems
7. Hilarious moments and hilarious memories. Sometimes I catch myself smiling, and maybe even suddenly bursting into laughter whenever I remember something embarrassing or unforgettable
6 things you do before you fall asleep
1. Listen to my current favorite songs
2. Completely fall head over heels into a new world-this is usually why I don't fall asleep until dawn
3. Think about some new ideas
4. Think about what to anticipate the next day
5. Worry, worry, and worry
6. Stare out the window to finally chill and let go of the bullshit. Then there goes my sleep
5 things you notice in the opposite sex
1. The way they present themselves in public i.e. their posture and style
2. The way they show their character. I'm looking for depth
3. Their daily language and the way they interact with people
4. Their jokes and sense of humor
5. Smile
4 things you wish you never did
1. I
2. learned
3. from
4. everything
1. Figuratively speaking, I need a fire extinguisher with you. And that alone is actually a big hint
2. You can't take me for a fool, I know more than you think I do.
3. Even though the future is a bit scary and a whole lot mysterious, I'd like to see and experience a radical change in the next few months, which I believe has a chance of happening. I have got to tell you, I need to break away
4. You have so much potential, and I realized that our similarities are so abstract that they almost seem a bit unrealistic. I know that you'll go far in life, and I hope we can make it through another year and end up living the life we've always aspired to live
5. You're over here seemingly curious about my life and wanting to keep in touch, yet you turn around and question everything about me. I honestly thought you were one of the sweetest girls I have ever met, but now, your insecurity is getting the best of you, and it makes you seem incredibly ignorant. Stop being a two face.
6. You're like my dream boy, and I hope you start believing in yourself
7. Thank you for understanding me, no matter how complex and unimaginably complicated I am.
8. I shouldn't have to prove myself to anyone. You, and surely a whole lot of other people in the world, are so fixed on their thinking that there is no pleasing them. People will always be critics
9. You've made a slight change in my life; the distance and the situation that we went through created an imaginary borderline. I miss you
10. I'm always going to be here for you. (And we're going to complete this dancing thing haha I missed it so much)
10 things people may not know about you
1. I zone out a little more than I should
2. I'm picky and specific with the intro of any song I listen to; i.e. I strongly dislike remixes that have intros longer than 20 to 25 seconds.
3. I like tattoos that have something to do with music (band names, singers, classics, songs, lyrics, etc.)
4. I act like a guy at home; I act carefree yet chill, and I don't take the time to talk about girly things and chick flick movies until I actually read and know its content.
5. I find myself more compatible hanging out with my guy friends rather than sitting in a room gossiping with my girls. But hands down, I still love my girl nights
6. I don't wear my heart on my sleeve
7. I love dares, thrills, and adventures. Except for the obviously stupid things, I always like to have my night out with something memorable and eccentric
8. I like provocative gangster music with the ever so famous hip hop and R & B slang for my party-hardy type of attitude, but I'm telling you, I also listen to songs you probably would never take the time to listen to, or songs as old as your grandmother
9. I find late home movie nights extremely sweet! Good company + good movie + genuine laughter = my idea of a sweet good time
10. I am ridiculously indecisive
9 ways to win my heart
1. Never be too clingy
2. Be able to let me know your priorities in life and the motivation you have. I always find that endearing
3. Having some knowledge in fashion
4. Making promises, and sticking to them
5. I'm not a big fan of that kissy-wussy movie dates. I'd rather go on an adventure with you in a place I've never been before
6. Be able to talk about anything without feeling insecure. I love spontaneous conversations. I might even find something you thought was ridiculous to bring up as something interesting
7. Don't be a show-off. Show your talents and intelligence naturally
8. Be down for a good time.
9. I find it sweet when a guy notices a flaw on the girl and think it's absolutely adorable. A non-judgemental guy is always a keeper
7 things that cross your mind a lot
1. College
2. My endless daydreams and vivid imaginations<3
3. Big cities
4. My potential career and my future
5. Boys and relationships. Ugh, I'm pathetic on that part. But it's part of life
6. Analyzing people's problems
7. Hilarious moments and hilarious memories. Sometimes I catch myself smiling, and maybe even suddenly bursting into laughter whenever I remember something embarrassing or unforgettable
6 things you do before you fall asleep
1. Listen to my current favorite songs
2. Completely fall head over heels into a new world-this is usually why I don't fall asleep until dawn
3. Think about some new ideas
4. Think about what to anticipate the next day
5. Worry, worry, and worry
6. Stare out the window to finally chill and let go of the bullshit. Then there goes my sleep
5 things you notice in the opposite sex
1. The way they present themselves in public i.e. their posture and style
2. The way they show their character. I'm looking for depth
3. Their daily language and the way they interact with people
4. Their jokes and sense of humor
5. Smile
4 things you wish you never did
1. I
2. learned
3. from
4. everything
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
"If my dreams get real bizarre, Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar"
These endless hours of staying at home makes me wish I could fall asleep and wake up feeling completely different. I've been sick for five consecutive days, and waking up to see a sunny day outside makes me want to loathe being at home. In between the sighs and the bits of irritation, I find myself relying on music to take my mind off some things. And well, I actually took the time to honor the newly released song, "Fireflies" by Owl City. If you are a fan of The Postal Service, then this song must be on your top list. And come to think of it.. I feel somewhat better just by listening to it. Don't drop the ball now, Owl City.
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