I'm back .. but only for the moment. I'm not quite sure which blog I'm going to permanently keep because I've sort of "gotten close" to Blogger. But then again I don't think I will be able to keep updating both since this site is a bit overlooked and have somewhat become the underdog over Tumblr. Oh well, what can you do.
Nothing big has been happening. Atleast not on the surface.
I think everything that has been happening this Spring break takes place in my mind. Such a mothereffing introvert. I irritate myself sometimes.
I think I have a crush. And the "think" part is my way of saying "here-goes-nothing."
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
I have somewhat been looking more into Tumblr for the past few days, not because I like it more than Blogger, but because it undeniably tickles one's fancy whether you deny it or not. I like blogging, it makes me feel better. But as much as I love expressing myself, I like browsing through thought-provoking, artsy, and humorous photos. They are irresistible. So I suppose that this will turn into a diary blog, also known as the "serious and personal entries." And Tumblr will gradually become my collection of wants, music, and inspirations.
Friday, March 19, 2010
"Ridin' the escalator to the somethin' that is greater"
RIP Nujabes
When I say that I am a die-hard fan of Nujabes, I do mean it. In fact, most of my blog posts, and music, have a bit of Nujabes influence in them. "Aruarian Dance," "Feathers," and "Reflection Eternal" are my top main favorites aside from his obviously good talent in lyrics and beats.
When I say that I am a die-hard fan of Nujabes, I do mean it. In fact, most of my blog posts, and music, have a bit of Nujabes influence in them. "Aruarian Dance," "Feathers," and "Reflection Eternal" are my top main favorites aside from his obviously good talent in lyrics and beats.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Direction
If you are into blogging, loves reading, have time in your hands, and can spare a bit of time to think, then go ahead and read. If not then I bet you won't finsih reading this. Sorry, I didn't expect it to be this long.
So it seems like this week has been a complete drag. And maybe the next.. and the next. I am waiting for something shocking because I absolutely hate that plateau when your daily life either seems to repeat itself, or it gets even more boring than the previous one. I am down to meet new people, and perhaps develop friendship with a few. As much as one says that they are done with the fake ones, you never really know which ones are actually fake and which ones are actually real, or maybe even one who transitioned from one to the other. That's why I choose not to prove myself to anyone who does not have the ability to tell the difference between the two. Because sooner or later, I will be misunderstood. But is it true that to be great is to be misunderstood? In some cases I do think so. But that's for someone who is as introspective as I am.
When I say that nothing is really going on with my life at the time, I really do mean it in the most literal way possible. It might sound negative, but that's just me being blunt. It's the truth and there is no point in sugarcoating things. I am not in touch with the world as much as I'd like to be, mostly because my phone is off at the moment, and it has been for quite some time. God knows when I'll get that back. But if that's so, then so be it.
Another Navy Recruiter came to my 5th period class today. I'm not sure if I'm into all that stuff, but I've always been open-minded with a lot of things. I want to know where I'm heading in about a year or two. There is always the safe and secure way of mediocracy, but is that going to give me justice? I have so many options in my head and I am known to take risks (even though I am incredibly indecisive). The two seem to contradict each other, but that's how my mind works. I never know what to do and I never know which decision is best, but once I make it, I have no regrets.
Do you ever imagine where and how your life will be after high school? I see two different women in me. One is in the city, living life as a working student, with the drive and motivation because she is surrounded by adventurous people who is just as crazy as she is. And the other one, the woman who lives a more delicate and conservative way of life with a trustworthy friend, living life by the beach to take things slow, perhaps having a potential romantic partner who gives you the butterflies. Or maybe it's neither one of those. Maybe it's a life that is completely different from what I imagine. Nobody ever really knows.
I think time seems to be moving a bit too slow at the moment. Year 2011 seems so far away. Even Summer seems so far away. I planned to get a tattoo this Spring, but I don't think that's going to happen this year because the AP test just came up. Besides that, I have prom to worry about. I can only imagine how next year is going to be. When Zooey comes back from LA, I want to go shopping with her again. Out of town. Because it seems to me like I think more clearly when I see new faces and new sceneries. And isn't it true, that shopping makes a girl feel so much better? We talk about these things whenever we're out shopping. Seeing two women walking together in trench coats and heels and us saying, "That's us in about 5 years." The fresh smell of coffee in the morning, going outside for a morning walk down the boulevard, having a job and coming home for another night out under the bright street lights. Well maybe that's just me. That is one of the main reasons why I think about all the different directions in life, all at once.
So it seems like this week has been a complete drag. And maybe the next.. and the next. I am waiting for something shocking because I absolutely hate that plateau when your daily life either seems to repeat itself, or it gets even more boring than the previous one. I am down to meet new people, and perhaps develop friendship with a few. As much as one says that they are done with the fake ones, you never really know which ones are actually fake and which ones are actually real, or maybe even one who transitioned from one to the other. That's why I choose not to prove myself to anyone who does not have the ability to tell the difference between the two. Because sooner or later, I will be misunderstood. But is it true that to be great is to be misunderstood? In some cases I do think so. But that's for someone who is as introspective as I am.
When I say that nothing is really going on with my life at the time, I really do mean it in the most literal way possible. It might sound negative, but that's just me being blunt. It's the truth and there is no point in sugarcoating things. I am not in touch with the world as much as I'd like to be, mostly because my phone is off at the moment, and it has been for quite some time. God knows when I'll get that back. But if that's so, then so be it.
Another Navy Recruiter came to my 5th period class today. I'm not sure if I'm into all that stuff, but I've always been open-minded with a lot of things. I want to know where I'm heading in about a year or two. There is always the safe and secure way of mediocracy, but is that going to give me justice? I have so many options in my head and I am known to take risks (even though I am incredibly indecisive). The two seem to contradict each other, but that's how my mind works. I never know what to do and I never know which decision is best, but once I make it, I have no regrets.
Do you ever imagine where and how your life will be after high school? I see two different women in me. One is in the city, living life as a working student, with the drive and motivation because she is surrounded by adventurous people who is just as crazy as she is. And the other one, the woman who lives a more delicate and conservative way of life with a trustworthy friend, living life by the beach to take things slow, perhaps having a potential romantic partner who gives you the butterflies. Or maybe it's neither one of those. Maybe it's a life that is completely different from what I imagine. Nobody ever really knows.
I think time seems to be moving a bit too slow at the moment. Year 2011 seems so far away. Even Summer seems so far away. I planned to get a tattoo this Spring, but I don't think that's going to happen this year because the AP test just came up. Besides that, I have prom to worry about. I can only imagine how next year is going to be. When Zooey comes back from LA, I want to go shopping with her again. Out of town. Because it seems to me like I think more clearly when I see new faces and new sceneries. And isn't it true, that shopping makes a girl feel so much better? We talk about these things whenever we're out shopping. Seeing two women walking together in trench coats and heels and us saying, "That's us in about 5 years." The fresh smell of coffee in the morning, going outside for a morning walk down the boulevard, having a job and coming home for another night out under the bright street lights. Well maybe that's just me. That is one of the main reasons why I think about all the different directions in life, all at once.
Soaring. Is this allowed?
I've mentioned this before: that Kid Cudi seems to fully satisfy the potheads who have good taste in music and sense of distinction with hip hop songs. He is, in fact, considered to be the most emotional rapper of the new millenium that if it wasn't for his notable "futuristic swag," no one would have thought he writes lyrics that usually involve a sort of eerie state of mind. But that's not a bad thing, if we're talking in sense of his skill as a lyricist and a recording artist. He speaks the truth. Everybody can relate once you strip down the idea of just "getting high." Because frankly, there are times when you just have to step outside and just not give a fuck.
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